The solution to an idiosyncrasy


My optimal working condition is characterized mainly by three attributes: autonomy, asynchrony, and atopy. The "three a's". That is to say: independence from the apparatus, from simultaneity, and from localization.
This does not mean that the possibility of working with other people, sharing the same place, or communicating live is strictly excluded. It means that this is only done when it is constructive, natural, logical. Not out of habit, convention, or regulation.
There will certainly be exceptions, especially in smaller entities, but normally corporate organizations of a certain size and complexity involve social dynamics that I find extremely toxic.
What weighs on me the most in those environments is the feeling of being forced to repress certain impulses — natural and normal elsewhere — to conform to an environment that, for reasons of coexistence, convenience, and connivance, becomes artificial, synthetic, and fake. A stage upon which individuals must avoid letting traits of their personality that make them unique show through, slipping into a character uniform that constrains and homogenizes the spirit even more than the tailored one they wear does to the body.
I am not able to lightly handle this split personality demanded almost by contract. There is a primordial and irrepressible force inside me that screams to warn me that all this is not right, that I AM normal in my uniqueness, that there is nothing wrong with expressing it, and that indeed suffocating it is wrong and can even cause pathological drifts.
While not being asocial or misanthropic, I am certainly well-equipped to (r)esist for a long time in a solitary and self-sufficient manner. And to draw advantage from it as well. This is why the "three a's" working mode is the optimal solution to my idiosyncrasy toward structured professional organizations.

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